A family (1 EGO-1 SILENCE)

I am handling the greatest phase of my life in deep silence. Do you know what it is truly called — a family?

I am surrounded by family, yet separated by walls of ego and silence.

That pain of being there for everyone, but finding no one for myself is one of the hardest to carry.

“I was the youngest. My mother used to say i was more mature than my age. She admired me, appreciated me, loved me, taught me, and even learned from me. She would tell me that by being my mother, she was also gaining a good friend for her old age. Yet, it has been ten years now — ten years of silence between us.”

Marriage — I married a person she didn’t like. After eight years of relationship, saying no to it wasn’t possible.

Relationships always have

ups and downs,

fights and sweets,

love and life,

do’s and don’ts,

likes and dislikes.

I always compare a family or life to the sea. Its unbelievably huge and with the changing tides it carries its wait, still stands in its place. Every season there is a change for a reason, likewise the family the life.

Now its been 10 years i am with my husband and two little one's, one is 8 years old and the other is 2 years old. Two c-section and 1 depression and 1 dengue i survived. Yet my parents didnt come to see my children or me.

Should i enjoy the celebration or

should i regret the separation.

One life.

One family.

Once gone.

Its gone.

Why the ego?

Why the silence?